Hi, guys!
Today I have perhaps the first good news about my mental state in the last few months. For the first time in many days, I slept without nightmares. And in fact, it already became difficult for me to go to bed because of this, because I know that as soon as I fall asleep, I literally fall into hell, and now I have a hope that all this will change, that I will be able to sleep again fine. The worst thing is that for me, the very process of going to sleep has become a disaster, because I am already pre-determined that something will be wrong.
Perhaps this is just the case where I would like to resort to self-persuasion. I try to adjust myself to the fact that everything will go well, that the night will be calm, but since this was the first quiet night in the last few months, it is very difficult for my head to believe in such beliefs. Despite this, I try to control myself. For me, the moment when I take medication has turned into a disaster for me, because I know that after I take them very soon I will want to sleep and then fall asleep. And then the nightmares will begin. I think that in fact, after all that I have experienced over the past few months, my psyche began to clear up in this way. And now maybe she's back to normal again so the nightmares disappear.
Of course, I very optimistically said "disappear", as if I am sure that I will no longer be, but in any case this is what I want to believe. Nightmares have been tormenting me for as long as I can remember, they may or may not be related to my mental disorder. I never found a chance to find out. However, I know for sure that when the phases change from manic to depressive and vice versa, they become very aggravated in me. I would like to know in what way it would be possible to make my brain believe that night is a calm time and that nothing threatens me, especially at home, but it seems to me that he just does not believe me.
I just realized that I had never been deeply interested in this topic. I really like to study psychology and psychiatry, I was interested in many areas. However, the topic of nightmares has never been touched upon by me, I don't even know where I could read something about this. If suddenly you know or can recommend something to me, please write in the comments. It seems to me that this is a very fragile area, very individual. That is why it is so difficult to find something about this, but I know that this has been with me for a long time, I really do not remember myself without them.
I know that nightmares can be a side effect of some drugs I take. However, I would like to hope that it is just the psyche that is cleared after everything that she had to endure. If this effect remains, in any case, I can talk about it with my doctor, with whom, by the way, I will meet on the 5th. I did not finish the course of treatment while I was in the hospital, and now I need to finish it on an outpatient basis, and I really hope that everything will go well and that the drugs will still work, because so far there is no certainty about that. However, I will start the New Year with the fact that my first night was calm, without nightmares. I hope that this will continue.
See you in the next post!
Love,Inber
Forrunately/luckily I do not have to. I very rarely have nightmares. And nowadays I very rarely have dreams too. Or at least I do not remember dreaming in the recent past.
Happy New Year.
Have a nice day and have a nice weekend.
All the best. Greetings and much love from Hungary.
really very good post
I think that's the best approach everything starts from within thou the drugs you take might add to it but I think channeling your mind and thoughts being in that cool state of mind will help you a lot when you see love your content.
Hey! Sorry to hear about your nightmares. I don't have a similar experience. In fact, when I'm in my weekly depressive state - I almost look forward to sleep, but I wanted to say that I hope it gets better for you.
Hopefully a new year translates to your situation glowing!
Best wishes.
Firstly what a great start for 2022 long may it continue.
It's great your nightmare has left. I would suggest finding a routine before bed that calms you like a peaceful walk (nature does wonders, lots of research into this). Find relaxing things try them and see what works best for you and add this into a little routine before sleeping to encourage your mind into the peaceful sleep environment. I'd also look at your bedroom environment colours; for example, blue or green is calming. Yellow will induce more dreams! Plants help as well detoxify the air. Have a period of no screen time before sleeping to reduce blue light. For example 👌🏽
Anyways all the very best for 2022 keep strong. This is going to be a great year!
As for dreaming not sure to look into the science of dreams. I know there is a lot of research into Lucid dreaming but I am not sure if this is wise when not well. Check out https://www.charliemorley.com/ he's an expert 🙏🏽