such shame is probably not very constructive.
there might be some element of natural talent, though more than anything, the difference in our qualities of writing may come down to a matter of (years more of) time invested in study and practice.
and of course, there is the matter that English is not your first language - thus an extra challenge to develop skills in English as well as writing.
If you wanted to write as good as me, you probably could - perhaps even better.
though, it would take years of diligent study and practice.
That would be a more constructive utilization of time & energy than shame... ;-)
Thank you @rok-sivante