I'm so sorry you were beaten up like that!
It's so true though that we have to get up and get proactive around what we need to do in order to not have it reverberate like a gong for decades. It is such hard work though, especially when the traumas experienced are from childhood, and are inarticulatable.
Though I guess really any trauma is inarticulatable, in one way? It is hard to put words to the experience when your body has fight and flight or froze itself right out of the picture. We are such complicated beings.
I look forward to reading more posts of yours :)