Comfortably Numb

in #quick7 years ago

That's how I feel at work + a bucket of anxiety here and there.
It's odd.
Today I submitted my resignation letter and I have 15 days left here. It should be obvious that when I'm not enjoying my job I should quit and find something new. Moreover I'm planning on getting more active here, learning about investing and starting a photography career. Instead of confidently making the jump I panicked and started seriously doubting myself.

"what if"

There's no telling how things will go, but without trying nothing will ever change.
What this job has given me is a load of motivation. I now, again, know that a 8-5 job isn't for me. It will wear me out and hinder me from doing what I enjoy, but it will keep me alive (if you can call it that).

I don't know how I should live. What's the goal? What do I owe society? Should I find a job serving and building to keep this world up and running or should I put my needs first and do the things I enjoy?
I've decided there are far too many people. Everyone does something and it doesn't matter in the big scheme. If I can find a way to make money, the how is not important.

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Kudos to you for doing that, and fingers crossed that you will find a way to make money without having to rely on a 8-5 job :)

Yeah. Thanks. They already offered me alternative jobs. I'm seriously doubting what I should do, but I think I'll still quit and try my luck on my own.

I understand, that’s how I feel right now too. I feel like I’m never gonna be ready to apply for a job in a regular setting. I’m also finding my place in here and I hope that it could sustain my daily living 😂

I hope so too, but it's always smart to rely on multiple income source not just one. Might never know when the payouts will drop or another crash happens.

Yes you are correct. Maybe you just need to slow thing first and apply for another job once you are fully ready. 😃

Most people go through life looked at as a # number. If you can brake that mold and have security go for it. If not take a number.
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Been there. Spent 6 months in a job that I loved for the first couple of days but started hating as time went on. Felt it had impacted my mental health very negatively, so I decided I would hand in my resignation paper. Had to work there for another month, but finally I was free. Good luck!

The beginning seemed fine for me too.

Great Post!
I feel what your saying as I am going thru the same exact dilemma now. It’s a drag to be working somewhere your not happy for sure. It makes it worse when it keeps you from doing what you want. Stay strong & Steem On you will find your path to freedom :)

I hope so. Thanks!
I hope you'll figure it out too :)

I was there with college. Took up a course that meant nothing to me, dropped out and now I'm in a constant state of anxiety. What if I made a mistake? I've got no clue what I'm going to do and it's hard. But doing something you hate is probably worse.

Well, instead of dropping out I finished, spent a year avoiding work and now that I'm working I can definitely say school has been a waste of time. Would I have simply spent time on what I enjoyed I might be in a better place already :P but we can't change the past, just build a better tomorrow.

I think same... this is not good 8... 17 to work.

I have no right to give advice.
But there's one universal principle: just do the best of your ability you can!
My best wishes dear @sulev!

More power to you. I'49 now and I've been living most of my life like that and I agree that the how isn't important. Somehow, you will survive

All the best.
Continue to enjoy the ride here. :-)