I can feel your pain. That last line...I really felt that. I won’t tell you it’s going to be okay or that you’re beautiful nonetheless (it is and you are, but that doesn’t help right now). Just know that you’re not alone. I struggle with this too. Sometimes more and sometimes less. At 48 it’s a drag to have to work on acne and wrinkles at the same time. I take antibiotics for months at a time to help me with this. Then it still comes back. It has generally gotten better for me with age if that gives you any hope. Hugs