Is English your first language? I'm just curious, I think I got the main point of your essay.
You mention having discussions with people (atheists) who want to be famous. Do you think this is a positive or negative attribute? You say there is pleasure after a biological death. Many atheists believe there is nothing after biological death. Are you sure you spoke to an atheist about this?
You also refer to the religious person as intellectually honest. How can you say that? I would consider advocating for myths and supernatural nonsense to be very intellectually dishonest. Is an atheist dishonest because he accepts the nature of his existence as finite?
You also seem to be confused in a haze of philosophical fog. The way we get along in the human condition is we all can generally agree on what is real, past, present, future and such. How do you get out of bed if you aren't certain that you are in any one place at any specific time?
I look forward to a chat, and I will likely blog a response soon.