You should keep searching for what your own personal answer is, be that through religion, or knowledge or how ever you find meaning. Should you accept atheism? I don't know because I don't know you, only you know the answer to that question and it is inside you, the root of which is the very essence of who you are.
Thanks totally agree with you.
Good luck on your quest to understand your true self! It is a life long quest and a difficult one. Cheers friend.