It all started well, even romantic. We lived in different cities, he came and looked after. I made an offer when I found out that I was leaving for an internship. Then I said that I agree, if in six months, when I come on vacation, the same feelings and the same desire to create a family will remain. I came and stayed with him. I put off my dream for later, went to his city.
How happy we were, I could not believe that it happens. After 2 years of life, he suddenly wanted to prove something to someone. He had money, promotion at work. Frequent gatherings with customers, hikes in pubs and strip clubs. Then I found out about the dating site. How painful it was already from this. I thought, what am I doing wrong ?! At once I will say that I am not stupid, beautiful, there is work that I love (although not my dream, but the way to it turned out slightly longer), I do not roll scandals, I meet joyfully at home, everything is fine in bed. What else was needed? After all, I loved him very much.
November, December, silently watched his betrayal. Everything was delving into myself, I could not understand what my mistake was. Only an error in it. I can not forgive myself for this, that I tolerated his lies. In December we talked almost to cleanliness, came, as I mistakenly believed, to the opinion that in a family where there is love, there can not be betrayal, betrayal, lies. And neither he nor I change each other.
A day after the conversation, he goes on a "business trip to Moscow," to the recreation center not far from our city with his lady. And before the New Year, after his business trip, I met him in the face, said that I knew everything and was tired of this meanness. Only it turned out, I did not know everything. He had a friend at work who had a pregnant wife and we spent many years together during these years. So it turned out that she slept with his friend, and his wounded pride could not survive it. He escaped, arranged in the company, opened a branch and went there.
Already half a year has passed or has taken place, and the pain did not become less. The whole situation is opposite. He naturally does not want a divorce, wants a child, talks about love, how he was mistaken. That's how we live again in different cities. I would like to stop feeling this pain, do not roar almost every night and decide something.
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