You're welcome. I love posts like this. I feel if anyone can learn from the mistakes I've been through then it's for nothing. Yes a lot of it is an internal battle and no amount of medicine is going to fix that. I have to play 'mental' games with myself. I joking tell others when you're so upset you can't see straight. Yell squirrel, it's better if someone else does it. It interrupts that train of thought and you usually get a laugh. It makes it easier to move through. I am at the point, I don't want to be on medication. I was told several years ago I would always be. So I admit, I'm a little apprehensive, since I have gone without and have medicine changes that have greatly affected me. Time will tell.
I would imagine you have gotten a lot of ideas. You really only caught the tip of the iceberg on this one. If you stick with it, you may have enough to write a novel.
This would have to be a book of horror, and hope. I do wish you well on your journey. Most of all, I hope you find intelligent, caring, effective doctors. I'll be seeing you around Steemit, I'm sure. Have just followed you.
Thank you @agmoore :) It might be. After you start looking into Waverly Hills it will be . My therapist I currently have is the best I have had so far even though there are some things we don't do. I have made the most progress with her. It's nice to not be judged for a change. I can be candid with her, I have never felt that safe before to open up like that.