Oh, this is great! This is my story :) Well, it's certainly not my story, after all this is a "Secret Writer" project. But in my life happened exactly like that. In 18 years I truly fall in love for the first time in my life. She was 15. "Romeo and Juliet" (they were the same age, if I'm not mistaken). And everything was just like in this story :)
Never I had loved a woman this much. We were already talking about getting married, about how many kids we would want, what their names would be. I was already telling her how far I would go for her and that I would die for her and that I would never let anything or anyone harm her.
I was experiencing love for the first time in my life, I felt obsessed with her security, and with everything that could affect her in a bad way.
I made sure to tell her how beautiful she was everyday, how I would be taking care of her for the rest of my life.
And then she went on summer vacation to another country. Our separation was 43 days. And in advance I wrote her a letter for every day. Total 43 letters that I gave her the day of her departure. In each letter I expressed my feelings in poetry and prose. I was really grabbed by very strong feelings. (Now I'm smiling while writing this).
And after she came back and we met after the separation, she looked at me like I was a stranger. In fact, she didn't even want to meet. This pain of betrayal for a few years made me forget about romance. I just wasn't capable of loving anyone. I literally cried every night for the next three months. And didn't understand why the world was so cruel and merciless.
A couple of years in my life came a second girl, which again broke my heart. Therefore, the topic of spirituality became my outlet. I went into self-discovery and spiritual practices to find peace and harmony, which I could not find in relations with the opposite sex. And when I was actually ready to happily live without a spouse, I met my present wife :)
And I realize now that it was not in vain. It was all preparation, priceless life lesson. And I am very grateful to God and to my Fate that everything happened exactly in such a way. And that heartache now seems to me a blessing. After all, it taught me to rely on more reliable support.
Thank you for this story, dear secret writer! And thank you, @stellabelle, that posted it in all colors. Some previous posts from this column, found no response in me, but today's topic touched me. Big deed you're doing! You're Steemit Mother indeed! :)
And your story could be my story too. I wrote about my love that really hurt me so much.............maybe I'll release it here on Steemit today. I want to re-experience that pain.