You are on my mind to a significant degree right now. I see my post here (thank you) so you know where I am currently at which makes this difficult because I was feeling I might not have anything constructive to offer while you're in the middle of this introspection. But I've changed my mind about not worrying. In fact your strength of character is the reason for that concern now rather than a comfort..
I would like to share why that is, but not here.