Well I am grateful you took the time to comment at all. I can't decide if I'm happy that you resonate with a lot what I have said, or if it is depressing, because it's not the most comfortable mindset to juggle. It can become incredibly difficult to trust others when you start to ask these questions, and that can be a lonely place.
In regards to the question, I know it wasn't worded great, but it was aimed at me, so you needn't bother yourself attempting to provide me with an answer. I already got what I needed from the question.