It's been a rough month and I'm not too sure how much to disclose to the internet, but I do feel that creating content for others to see is always good for the soul; with that said I encourage others to talk if they also feel they need a voice to be heard. I've been diving into the consciousness of myself and I've discovered that I must change my person and a fundamental level; I've delved into habits and philosophies that have brought me to a point, at which I must decide if it is too late to change myself. People never change, you can't teach an old dog new tricks, old habits die hard, the list goes on about how I should just accept that I am the way that I am. That is something I am not willing to accept; I will not allow myself to be bound by the shackles of nature, I am still however a product of my environment and that is something I will always acknowledge. From my nature I will learn and adapt, as humans are so often known for, to rise from the tar that my toxicity has brought me into and flourish into the person myself and others close to me have expected me to become. I can change, I will change.