First thing each day when I wake I read from a wisdom book. Currently it's Osho, The Tantra Experience. Oddly but often the section that I read has something to do with what happened in my life the day before...here is the passage I read this morning:
“The ascetic fights sex energy, and through that fighting he starts falling away from God, falling away from life, falling away from the vital source of life, and then there are perversions – bound to be. The more you fight with something, the more perverted you become, and then you start finding tricks, back doors to enter into it again.”
And then:
“But the irony is that the ascetic thinks that the Tantrika is obsessed, the ascetic thinks that the Tantrikas talk about sex. "Why do they talk about sex?” – but the real obsession is in the ascetic. He does not talk about it – or even if he talks about it he only talks to condemn it – but he continually thinks about it. His mind goes on reeling around and around it”