It's a bitch to quit, but I know you can do it. It's been almost 5 years since I quit and sometimes I still crave one. Maybe while you're tallying your savings in fiat you can also tally the cost in Steem and decide if it's worth the price.
I wish you the best, sincerely.... and I know you will feel better after the pain. You will also be free of one less person, entity, habit that currently controls your life. Take back your control <3 <3 <3