Have you ever experienced something you considered to be “paranormal” or “esoteric.” Maybe you have a strong feeling that you aren’t alone in your room at night, or perhaps you see glimpses of movement out of the corner of your eye. You aren’t crazy. It’s actually pretty normal for humans to sense or see spirits, especially at night as the distance between realms is apparently lessened. Recently when I smoke marijuana, I’ve been experiencing extremely heightened senses and a feeling that spirit is trying to communicate with me. Soon after I start to “shift” my ego freaks out and brings me back into “reality,” or this third dimensional reality that feels safe to me. For a while now, I have been trying to open my third eye. I meditate regularly, chant mantras, eat a plant-based/raw diet, avoid fluoride and consume turmeric regularly. I never experienced anything supernatural, so I gave up. I did start to experience extremely beautiful moments of “presence” which moved me to tears, and so I decided that was enough for me. However, recently, my third eye started to open.
It all started a few weeks ago when a bee stung me on my left foot. My foot swelled up to twice its normal size. It was painful to walk and itched fiercely. I’ve experienced several bee stings in my childhood, and none of them affected me like this. I had a weird feeling this happened for a reason. About a week later, I smoked herb with my roommates and became very high. I went back to my bedroom and saw a bee sitting on the top right corner of my bed. I decided to get the bee out of my room without getting stung again, I would have to kill it. A sense of dread filled me as I thought of killing the bee. I apologized to it, and expressed gratitude for it’s life, before grabbing my left shoe and squishing him. I grabbed a piece of paper to carry his body outside, but dropped him in the process. I searched everywhere for his body to no avail. Finally, I noticed the body sitting perfectly erect atop my right shoe. As soon as I saw this, a sense of recognition flooded me. First the bee was on my left foot, then my right. I knew spirit was trying to communicate with me.
I looked up “bee animal totem” and was amazed that the message was exactly what I needed to hear. I then had the urge to see my aura, so I outstretched my hand in front of my white wall, and peered through the space between my pointer and middle finger. A white light surrounded my hand, and then a bright green came into focus. I've never seen my aura so clearly and vividly before, and was amazed at its beauty. I then looked directly at my fingers, and noticed they were purple and yellow, and looked distorted. There were also way more than 5 on my hand. I started to hear a ringing in my left ear, which transitioned into a soft whispering. I tried to concentrate on the whispering and relax. As I did, I started to become aware of a dark shadow to my right. The shadow had a white ring of light around it. As it came more into focus, I felt it's energy. I became scared, and stood up and walked out of the room.
The next day, I felt like a huge coward. I had been asking spirit to communicate with me, to send me signs, and when it did, I ran. I was letting my fear programming win. I became determined that the next time I started to “transition” into another dimension, I would let it happen.
Last night would be the night I again transitioned. It started the same as the first night, I smoked herb with my roommates. As my boyfriend was talking to me, his body began zoning in and out of focus. It looked like he was a mirage, wavering in front of me. I then headed to our room and began breathing deeply. I once again wanted to see my aura, and once again I saw green. I looked up the meaning to find that it described individuals who were very intuitive, sensitive, natural healers, had a strong connection to nature, and had possible psychic abilities.
Reading this filled me with a sense of warmth and recognition. I closed my eyes once again, and began hearing a bizarre noise. It sounded like there was a heavy wind all around me, with leaves rustling. I opened my eyes to see that the ceiling fan was causing a paper I had tacked to my wall to move in the breeze. As soon as I looked directly at the paper, the sound disappeared. When I would look away, it would start again. I began looking up this phenomenon and saw it described as “clairaudience.” As I was looking at my phone, I also noticed something out of my peripheral vision. Another dark figure with a white lining, but this time directly in front of me. I decided to lay down and meditate, and let whatever was wanting to speak to me come through. As I lay there, my body began to melt away, and I felt a sensation of numbness. Then came the cold.
My entire body began to shake uncontrollably, to the point where I was uncomfortable. I got up and put on a sweater, sweatpants and socks. I lay back down and again, my body began to shake. I did not enjoy this sensation at all, so I forced myself up, out of bed. Once again, I had ran away from spirit.
Once again, I was discouraged. I reached out to several of my friends whose third eye was already opened, and regularly had esoteric experiences. Most of them explained that they had resisted several times before letting “it” happen. One of my friends, Rosanne, told me that it helped her when she told her ego “we can come back.” In my mind, when I think of the metaphysical, I think of every paranormal movie I’ve ever seen. Demons with red eyes, succubus', inanimate objects moving suddenly, people being possessed and haunted... It’s silly, but my ego still associates this fear with the metaphysical. I know there are dark entities, but there are also angels, spirits, spirit guides, and a beautiful unconditional love which I’ve never been able to access before.
They say you must master your darkness before you can master the light. I am on a continuous mission, to get a grip on this fear that seems to paralyze my being; to push past the dark into the immaculate light. If you are reading this, and have had a similar experience, I would love to hear from you, and how you learned to stop resisting “transition.” Until next time friends, Namaste.
I skimmed through the read and yes those are really some interesting experiences and being able to see things requires breaking certain limitations and accumulation of quite a bit of energy. For most who try to open their third eye too fast will see the non physical that they are not ready for. I would suggest pychic shielding if you know how because there will be some entities are attracted to it now that you have awareness to them. Not everything you see is positive or negative. But that shadow person certainly was a negative being. Hope you stay safe and protected.
Stare into shadow, until you see light. The biggest obstacles are fear of death, pain and rejection, stare these down within thyself and the rest are easy in comparison. The most advanced beings accept and allow all experiences, but still choose how to respond.
That comment struck me right in...the eye. I have been reading about the third eye and some spiritual stuff lately. And have been intrigued by it. I have been raised in a christian home, and have realized that all my prayers have been answered, and fulfilled, the thing is....i got so much more than i prayed for. A lot more than i envisioned when i was praying. The time i chose to genuinely pray to god in a zealous way could not be worse....puberty..."please give me a computer....and i want that body part you know to be huge. Please God, Amen. I eventually forgot about it all. And semi drifted away from God over the years, only to be sparked later and come back in full force. Long and hilarious story short, i have always been feeling that something is amiss in the world and have been digging around using the skills i have learned on the shit-ton of computers God threw at me. And ended up in a detailed explanation with tips about how to open the third eye. I lay down on the bed and closed my eyes. After trying around for some time i suddenly saw something! It was like a dark gooey wobbly wall in front of me. The color looked like if you mix all the colors in your painting kit. Very dark purple being the majority. Everything misty as well. I sensed i could not move, but if i focused on the wall i could...zoom!? And i carefully zoomed closer and closer. I started to discern the wall was made of something that seemed alive. The best description i can find is endless amounts of anemone tentacles, except it looked like all of them wanted to escape but were anchored. After some study of it i realized i could force my focus into the wall and i did. I saw something like an obscured light in there somewhere, so i tried harder. Then suddenly there was a very powerful looking face right in front of me that was made of either fire or light. It scared me so bad i immediately snapped out of it and opened my eyes. I have tried again over a month, but never managed to do it again.. Anyone have any input? I run into a lot of warnings when trying to find others who have been successful.