Damn, there was some fire in this post. I like it.
This is the truth though. I like to think a lot of my writing at times but when the edible haze fades, I realize that I am essentially a desk chair philosopher with a counter-culture/"druggie" spin. There is nothing wrong with that but it is never going to more than a niche market. However, I did manage to find that niche and build a cozy little blog there and it seems to be growing beyond all my expectations.
This shit takes effort. Some people are lucky and find an audience right away and some of us have to grind and sweat to make this work. Anyone who chases what is popular in an attempt to earn is just trying to take an easier path when there is none.