My Grandfather once told me to always look after the Red Cross.
This post show's your understanding of that in so many way's mate.
Personal demon's can truly be dick's of thing's.
One thing we don't get told is we evolved with a psychological fight for survival.
This can create many demon's in many people, especially people with fairly easy lives and those with to much spare time,(eg. He's his own worst enemy) where in a bland life where we can subconsciously create a fight with ourselves to get those little win's that keep us going for a while longer. <----This is one of the fuck'est thing's in modern day life in my opinion.
Evolutionary Psychology v's Psychology v's Sociology are fighting each other in our own head's all the time trying to help us understand our own perspective.
Adding to that to make it worse are biological condition's that have a profound effect on the human brain, such as our microbiome's and micro-nutrient balance's, both of which can be destroyed by lifestyle's, medicine's and many other thing's.
These are a few of the interesting topic's I've stumbled across in looking for better understanding in my own life, and yes alcohol has been a large part of it also.
I feel honoured to read your post with such a personal touch and it's good to see someone making solid ground in fighting the good fight and helping other's with it's spoil's. Have a good day mate.
Edit:... Actually, even more now, thank you.