You might be a minnow with your own SP but you are a Dolphin in terms of the influence you wield.
You account has over 10K of SP....that means you are operating and contributing to this blockchain as a Dolphin.
So perhaps you need to adopt the mindset of an Orca LOL.
Hmmm... maybe. lol
I see the 10k SP as the hidden fund. I know it's there, but I focus, as you said, on my own SP. Kind of like a mind game I play with myself. Helps me get to the next level.
LOL Okay.
Far be it for me to intrude on the mind games you play with yourself. 😀