I can only imagine... it's hard what you face, and now a lot of things about you attempt to make more sense..
A lot of lines up there pierce my heart, but this: "... so why should the laughter of a simple race of humans cause me to waste a second thought of my precious time?" has managed to pin it down.
What's with my steemit heroes and battle with death and depression?
I know this is in a bid to give us a peak into your world, and what to expect in the world you've succeeded in creating for us - the Space Force. I see it! I see you!! And I'm sorry no one has made you feel worth the time and space you consume in this planet, so you get yourself another.. I wish you met us sooner, I wish we had Steemjet even a day before it came into existence, I wish you didn't have to listen to death's music all along...
I'm motivated, inspired, encouraged by all your words in this piece. Message well delivered, lesson well learnt. But for now, I just want to break a bit, for a moment, this moment, I want to be you!
You might want to see this (again).
https://steemit.com/steem/@wakkylyon/re-dimimp-why-i-delegated-100-of-my-steem-to-steemjet-20180618t084900509z