Disposition, is a short word with a lot of courage, there are currently many fields of work in the affairs of our Father, GOD, but few workers who want to work in an orderly manner, with sincere and disinterested love, that is why it is important to always ask for direction to God, ask for confirmation to make decisions, not always those loving people who approach with much love are sincere, they cover their true Self with a false face, but there is nothing hidden between heaven and earth and sooner rather than later God shows his servants who is each one
God does not put a burden on those who can not, if he places his eye on you as a leader, he will add everything that is necessary, training him in everything, making every weakness a strength because his purposes are fulfilled, GOD is sovereign.
Our strength comes from the Father who is in heaven, through his son Jesus Christ and the comforter, holy spirit; He manages life and everything that exists on this earth.
Do not fear anything Apostol, God is in control of all things, always looking to the goal and never stop giving, as you said in the Meetup: "Bless to be blessed"
Blessings.