I'm sorry to hear. All our struggles help us become closer and better to one another, I feel those who have too much or live in indulgence, they lose touch with humanity. We all wish we converted more back in start of 2018, it was the first for too many I suppose, you were wiser and more prepared than most then.
Also you might be in luck, according to 10 years of data, the 2 years btc bear market is coming to an official end, and to think it's almost 9K in a bear market, can't help but wonder where it will all go; when we look back in 12 months, I think we will be pleasantly surprize.
All I know is technologically, there has been leaps of innovation, VC are now pouring in moneys to create different strains of lightning network so it's a fraction of a $0.01 and faster speed. It helps that adoption is taking hold as more and more folks lose confidence in government and elite entities feeding corporations like Justin Sun's tron foundation with endless printing of baseless fiat that citizens and communities didn't willingly support but had to adopt. Honestly, I would think it make sense to keep some of what you accumulated crypto in BTC, if not at least 1 whole BTC then a quarter or half will set you right in the coming years.
btw. If you live to serve, then you lived an honorable life, and worthy too. We have nothing but meaning and pride in what we do in life. I can think of nothing better than service to others, or in other words your life of some meaning would be the envy of millions without.
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btw. Justin doesn't want people to powerdown, he wants people to buy Steem and keep the price up. He has to change the powerdown to 24hours to applease his exchange / elite community to keep the rich happy. If they really believe there is no risk of losing value by keeping their millions of funds locked up for 13 weeks, why are the forcing Justin to keep his promise of a 24hour powerdown?
I'll think about what you've said.