I broke character on my other account and spoke about Galt's Gulch. This is my SERIOUS account. The @chaospoet one is my have fun and see if I can have complex conversations only in poetry that I make up really fast on the spot that is relevant to whomever I am talking to. So far I pull it off most of the time and it is a challenge.
Anyway, I was reading your post on that account got excited and posted out of character... TWICE. LOL.
Here is a post I made to try to address this same envy issue you are talking about... the video you can watch if you want it also has a link to the original which is all written. No up vote required, but it'll show you that you are not alone and a lot of us have been trying to get people to realize that this is a paradigm shifting moment. This is NEW! It hasn't been seen before! Rejoice!