Yesterday I decided to start a blog about my journey to stop smoking cigarettes. I started my reflection on the first time I ever tried a cigarette. Please take a look at it if you would like to get up to speed, or you may just enjoy this story I'm going to share with you! As always thanks for your support it truly keeps me motivated!
Sixteen years old is an awkward age, especially for a male. The curiosity of how to get what any teenage boy wants takes over his whole thought process, at least that was the case for me and many others that I knew. Girls were blossoming into sculptures hand crafted from the gods themselves, and I finally found the one that had been sculpted for me.
When I was a younger student I was very diligent with my school work, but when I allowed my brain to focus on its wild instinct of breeding I slowly let my grades slip away. I always managed to keep up a C average for my classes, but my newly learned poor work effort landed me a first class ticket to summer school. This is where I found her. The one that I had to have!
I remember being dumbstruck by the sight of her. She had a body like no other girl I knew, and her smile would light up my soul! To this day I still don't understand why she approached me, but she did. We had some awkward teenage conversation, but to my surprise when we were walking out of school that day she gave me a small sheet of paper with her phone number on it, and told me to call her, she would love to hang out. I played it as cool as I possibly could, but when I entered the comfort of my truck I felt the power of one thousand orgasms rush through my body! I was high, and the only drug I had taken was lust, but this is were I can reflect back and say that maybe I should have been more cautious!
As I was driving home from school that day I was still floating on a cloud! My dream girl came to me with little or no effort! I had hit the lottery! I called her as soon as my chores around the house were done! When she answered I think my heart stopped! She told me to meet her at her house, and we could hang out that night! Everything was going to smooth!
I arrived at her house after washing my body ten times, and splashing brute aftershave on my face. When I pulled up she jumped in my truck, and to my surprise she had a friend with her that came along too! We rode around town, that's what we did in the small Tennessee town as teenagers, and talked about a little bit of everything. I always had a knack for making people laugh, and these two girls were melting in my hand.
After some good laughs, and a half a tank of gas the subject of cigarettes came up! I had smoked plenty of cigarettes by this time in my life, but it was normally socially with the guys. It was what we did to look tough or to be socially accepted by the other guys. This was the first opportunity I had to seem cool for a girl by using cigarettes, and I jumped on it like a monkey on a banana tree! I had never bought a pack of cigarettes until this day, and I wasn't even sure if I would be able to get them, but for my dream girl I would try at any cost!
I pulled into the gas station where I had watched my friends buy cigarettes many times before. I acted like I had done it one million times, but inside I wanted to run like a little boy, but I had to remain calm and cool! I walked in and blurted out what I wanted! I probably sounded like the biggest dummy in the world, but it worked! I had scored my first pack of cigarettes ever, and I felt like Kimbo Slice walking out of that store!
Down the road we go! We open the cigarettes, and started to indulge! I had accomplished something! cigarettes had empowered me, or so I thought!
This is it for Part 2. I will be making a daily blog reflecting on my journey with cigarettes, and will eventually get to my reason for stopping. Thanks for following if your interested! Thanks for the support too! It truly helps me to know that so many people actually know the dangers of smoking, and care that people stop! If you are a smoker it's ok! I will never belittle anyone, or even tell you that you should stop. We are adults, and we have freewill.