My friend, it was tough for me to read this, but I read every word.
I'm sorry about what you have been through. Honestly I have a ton of respect for you! I can understand if you are frightened, scared, feeling hopeless, but I want you to know that there is definitely greener grass right next to this fence!
You're a fighter. Keep fighting. Life is testing your tolerance. By getting through this hurdle, think about how strong you are becoming on the inside. Think about what incredible kids you are going to have in the future, as they are fighters too!
When you are in a position like yours, any progress is great progress.. And I know you will do it. You are on the perfect platform to do so!
You have completely humbled yourself to talk about this topic. It's a huge step forward.
Above any of your struggles, nothing can compensate for pure hard work. Hustle can overcome any obstacle! You have the persistence. Now show the world what you're made of :)
See you at the top my friend. I have faith in you. When things may seem unbearable, just know that I am (virtually) by your side! Feel free to engage with me at any time. I'm in discord, Steemit Chat, you may leave a comment on my posts, and I will support you. I'm also sometimes in TeamPhillipines chat.
Stay awesome!
More than anything money can buy, you give your kids love! That's important.
Talk soon :)