"Prove you are not lying" (...) "So, stop lying." (...) "what the secret is" (...) "admit that you have much more fancy hardware, paid for with your premined stake" (...) "I know enough about sysadmin" (...)
I'm sorry, I can't help you. That would be an illegal medical practice.
I've explicitly offered (and provided) help to people that needs API nodes for their businesses and reported on my own node status multiple times in my witness logs.
Seriously? That is what you see there?
Are you seriously screenshootting content that was written on the blockchain?
You are insane*
(*) that's my subjective point of view, unfortunately, I'm not a doctor so I can't provide you a medical advice = "that would be an illegal medical practice"
Please seek your help among doctors, not witnesses.
Good luck.