Great essay! I grew up poor, without much guidance on how to "be"...most of my life lessons have been learned the hard way. When I re-enlisted the first time, in the Army, I got a fistful of cash, but because I didn't have any background to know what to do with it, I simply blew most of it. If I had known then what I know now, I might be fairly well off...
My take on the world is that we live what we learn until we learn a better way to live...
Keep writing...I've lost the time to do it much, anymore, because I'm doing so many other things. But I have to say I do miss doing it, sometimes...
Don't worry. There is no such thing as wasted time.
Write on...or, whatever it is you do. :)