Thanks always, @trucklife-family.
At least until there is absolutely no choice (maybe I don't even believe in such a situation ;)) I am going to keep putting out content and expressing myself here. Almost like muscle memory at this point, and without the community and self-expression, I will definitely feel stifled.
Really appreciate you. Gonna battle this out. Just needed to kind of begin to work out my game plan and acknowledge some unpleasant realities. I am sure there is a big positive under all of this, but I am learning that that is part and parcel of embracing and feeling the negative feelings and realities as well.