Thank you for taking the time to respond Terry. That is quite generous for someone with your time demands. Please don't feel like you have to respond. I am just glad to know you read my comment.
I am all too familiar with depression. Mine takes the form of anxiety though. Constantly thinking about life's what ifs. I feel from your post about your family growing old that the what ifs get to you too.
Remember you are powerful. I mean that in the sense that you get up every day, and continue to do good works. Many people suffering the way you are would not make the effort to get out of bed. Let society take care of them, instead of getting out and helping society.
I found your discord channel and added it to my list. I hope one day to have a chance to run into you there. Your posts paint you as a great ideas person, and I always enjoy people who have brave big ideas. Ideas should be set free, not pushed down with persistent "No, you can't do that" from the world at large.
I'm glad I found your this post resteemed in my feed and came to check your posts out. You're one of the good ones. Thank you for that!!