Very astute interpretation @carlgnash and one I'm not overlooking. I think my use of ROI was fairly loaded and caused some of my own confusion. I completely agree that feeling the positive cycle of giving with no expectation can still be a very positive return on investment.
I suppose there's just a separation from humanity that may be creating this conflict for me. Even as I type this...I'm staring into my phone...and while the potential to connect and create positive change in others is at my fingertips, I still can't escape some degree of guilt. Anyway, I need to dig into a few more posts from users shared by @stellabelle. I'm sure I'll have a different story to tell with each new exposure to what drew me into Steemit in the first place :) #upvote
Well I can tell you one thing, if I had to type my comments on a phone I probably never would have started Steemit in the first place :) I spend a lot of time on computers anyway and the nature of my remote (work from home) position means that there are hours in the morning before the rest of my family wakes up that I am technically at work but have plenty of time to internet. This changes the equation for me, I am sure.
I hear what you are saying though. If I could give you one word of advice, which is relatively presumptuous considering I really hardly know you - it would be to try to let go of guilt wherever you encounter it. What a useless emotion that just hinders true enjoyment of the present. Sorry to preach brother
Oh, I can handle a good preach...let that sermon flow brother!
I do tend to tie unnecessary baggage around my ankles at times (especially with respect to writing). I've become a true believer in Dzogchen and mindfulness, which has helped. I'm not sure I want to let go of the guilt, but instead notice it as more external to me. I'm better now about "watching" it enter the picture, and then smiling at it as it passes by and carries on to infect its next host ;)
I think that is pretty much exactly what I meant by letting go of it.