Being at ease outside of comfort zones is what I would call a high degree of mental strength. That stuff ain't easy.
Traveling ain't easy and it demands your full attention if you haven't done it before. I certainly understand why you experienced that "breakdown".
In my spiritual journey I feel like I am just on page 10 of page 1000.
The goals that I currently have can be reached and will be reached soon, after that I don't know what will happen, but I am sure I will be on the next page.
I will also have an altar built for the Thundergod soon, I will snap a picture and share it when it is done.
Enjoy this piece of Germanic culture (it is very spiritual and magical).
I know exactly what you mean. Yet I think we are both at least on page 11. Mind over matter. Break through and bend the universe.