Thanks Asa for this, I guess you missed mine. I felt really depressed some days ago, after finding out things I laboured myself for months for didn't come out as expected. It gets really annoying, like I just wasted those months for nothing.
What keeps me going is knowing the fact that everything in life is temporary, all problems are temporary, even the imperfect life itself is temporary. A friend and a brother D. H. Splane was my source of encouragement.
Now you make me wish I had written this earlier. Anyway, disappointments are never endearing. I can feel the pain in your words, really sorry about it. You've got a good friend and brother, please never harbour such anger, feel free to discuss it with someone you trust.