I was checking my Facebook account like usual , I didn't expect for a moment that I am gonna know a guy that I will fall in love with , seeing the friends requests , I found a guy with white skin ,so black beard and he seemed so tall like so much tall guys, seriously I thought at once that he is not even a human like he is coming from out of the planet kinda of extraterrestrial or something.😂
I accepted his request , we didn't talk to each other in that moment but after 4 or 5 days he sent me a message I didn't respond to him at first cause I was busy preparing my university final year project , so I didn't pay him attention but he didn't stop texting me , it was like the destiny trying hard to make us close , it was pushing me to talk to him , it was "Venus" sending me love spears . finally after his too many failed texting tries i replayed to him and I sent him a simple " hi " and since that message we begin texting each other like nights and days without stoping , he knew me like no one has know me before , he got close to me like nobody does before , even that I didn't see him in person I felt something special in him , I didn't know it at first but he had always that hiding side that I was always wanting and trying to know it , it wasn't only the reason that I didn't see his face but he didn't show me also all his personality and I was dying to discover the unknown , the curiosity is in my bones , I am starving for the truth like a vampire is starving for the human's blood , and he played it well and he had never show me him self .
After 3 weeks of no stop talking , laughing , kidding ... He told me that he likes me and that he thinks that he even loves me , I didn't expect that it's gonna be that fast and in that way , I mean he didn't even see me in real life how could he feel that way , and me ? , I get used to talk to him but I didn't feel like I really love him and for not hurting him or loosing him I told him that I feel the same feelings . How can we love without seeing the one we love ?! , i mean for me how it could be without touching him without kissing him , without hugging him , without hanging out , without taking a long walks together , without cuddling , smelling his odour , playing with his hair , playing with his beard , doing crazy things , visiting new places together , making memoires and at that moment many questions come to my head .
When he convinced to me in the beginning I told him that we should meet he told me that he is kinda of busy but I knew that he wasn't telling the truth , however I kept my suspensions to my self . the time was uncatchable with him , I was comfortable with him like I've known him my entire life , 2 months passed and he didn't ask me for a meeting , I was wondering " why he didn't ask me to go out ? he said that he likes me , what he is waiting for ? " .
One year and 2 months passed and I didn't meet him yet guys , after many tries of making programs to meet each other , he had always excuses he had always obstacles , I gave him many chances so he can fix this weird relationship so he can make it to the next level I gave him time , cause I loved him , something in him attached my soul , after all what we ve been throw he had not the capacity to see me he had not the courage , he was always afraid of my first reaction , of me hurting him , he was always scared of ignorance .
After the one year and the 2 months , after pushing him for a meeting and after my useless tries , finaly I knew it for sure that he missed his self estimation that he was cowerd so I decided to move on cause I knew it from my heart that the love is not for the weakest people and it definitely takes courage