There’s this game called Blue Whale.
A couple months ago, it was all over the news. And has been credited with at least a dozen deaths in real life.
I played a game like this too.
Not a “real” game, but one on my head.
If I fail or get a lower grade than “X”, I’d kill myself.
I played it throughout high-school. It was torture. It induced an acute sense of anxiety and stress in me.
The only reason I’m alive is because I kept winning, every single time.
Except once.
Last August I saw a grade I didn’t like. One awful grade. I’d missed the cutoff margin for that by just one point.
One point.
So my severely depressed, horrifically insecure mind told me that I needed to die.
It took EVERY ounce of strength in every fibre of my body, to not die that night. To decide that, at 2 AM, it would be best to go to sleep in bed than go to sleep permanently on a noose.
I didn’t learn.
I made that challenge for myself in college acceptance season - if I didn’t get into at least one good college, I’d kill myself.
Then I did this again for college credits - if I don’t get the scores I need for college credit, I’d kill myself.
I won again, both times.
To kill yourself for something like that is really hardcore and not so sane, but did the thing of passing hehe, but dude, if it's really you or another one I hope the habit is gone xD, to lose everything for a mistake doesn't sound good D:
Congratulations @mrafii1236! You received a personal award!
You can view your badges on your Steem Board and compare to others on the Steem Ranking
Do not miss the last post from @steemitboard:
Vote for @Steemitboard as a witness to get one more award and increased upvotes!