THE FACE BEHIND THE MASK (Real Life Story)

THE FACE BEHIND THE MASK

I've been wearing a mask for so long Hindering my ability to let people see me for who I really am It's hard to breathe behind this mask. It's getting hot.
-Dominic Latino

I grew up with a single mother who taught me hatred towards the father I never knew. She also taught me to be secretive- 'You can't trust anyone, even with your tears'. I learnt to smile everytime even when there's really nothing to smile about.

I am now a young woman, a woman of God many look up to. People see me as perfect. You know- the happy, successful, big with a big God. But I am dying on the inside. No one knows this. No one knew I was sexually abused several times, when I was seven, by my mum's boyfriend. He stopped when my mum broke up with him two years after then. No one knew how I dated a married man at the age of 15, got pregnant for him and aborted it for me. He broke up with me immediately after then. No one knew. Not even my mother knew I aborted three times more since I clocked 19. I was broken and battered but nobody knows.

And now, nobody knows how my fourth ex-boyfriend is blackmailing, harassing me amd asking for ridiculous amount of money. Nobody knows about my nightmares or my four babies that I see crying 'mummy mummy' to me anytime I close my eyes.

No one knows how hard it has been for me to stay in a relationship. Not because I don't want one, they all just break one way or the other. No one knows. Not even my mentor.

All they know is the beautiful smiling face, the established entrepreneur, the praying woman-wordful mama, lover of God and people.

What they all see is the mask and not the depressed face behind the mask.

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This is to women out there who think being strong is hiding themselves behind a veil. Being strong is when you acknowledge your weaknesses but you don't gloom over them.

Talk to someone about your fears and flaws, someone you know can help you up and not pull you down.
And don't you ever hide from God. Bare yourself naked before.
But remember to seek help when you need one! Stop hiding.

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And to women with a past that is chasing after them. If it's something you can not handle, please talk to someone older and more matured. Do not keep silent about a blackmail especially. Don't be intimidated!

And to every woman out there, regardless of what you have gone through or still going through now, you are a WINNER!
Stay with God and stay on top always!

Anonymous

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Single parent
Sexual abuse
Saying out your problem to others

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