On many occasions I have considered suicide. In the end, it is a choice. Sometimes in life, we are confronted with so much pain and agony about our own shortcomings and failures that we just want to check out. We feel that by our own actions we are no longer worthy to be alive and really to save face, so to speak, the honorable thing to do in the cultural that we happen to be in at the time is to end our life
What has kept me in the game, however, is knowing that I am under contract. I am here to deal with my own personal defects in my character, and I know that if don’t t deal with them this time, I will be back again to deal with them the next time. In other words, we don’t get to graduate until we pass all the exams with an acceptable score.
Sometimes people reach a point where they realize that what they are confronted with where ever they are at in the game is in surmountable. There is no further point in continuing and so the choice is to take themselves out their present misery. They will return because each and everyone us are spiritual beings and we are learning how to take responsibility for the realities that we have created.