I can only imagine how you were feeling throught all this!
Sharing this asian's perspective when I first set foot in AU:
The lady, coming from a place where there is literally zero concept of personal space, felt lost in the vastness of the place. ALL THIS SPACE! She enjoyed the difference, this human-per-square-footage-of-land-ratio suits her just fine.
But somehow it felt lonely. It felt too quiet. Where is the busy buzz of the millions of people fighting over a spot in a cramped restaurant?
She suddenly missed the chaos.
Yep my little town here on the Sunshine Coast has a population of just 3,200 people so the first few months were quite the learning curve lol. You must have felt overwhelmed here too...
I did during the first week. But the rest of my 6-week stay I fully had appreciated the peace and quiet. When I got back home I felt that everything is (a little annoyingly) chaotic! Lol.
Totally get that. I love Japan but it's really hard work as are most highly populated places lol