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I have been holding on for almost a year now. I had to.
Sometimes I wonder where the strength come from. I praise God for holding me up this long.
But sometimes, while prayer takes care of the internal, we still need to work on the external. So today, I have to humble myself, put my guard down and just try to ASK.
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RM193.65, yup! that’s the balance in my emergency account at the moment. And I am not getting paid for the previous work that I have worked on until (at least) mid of January! It’s not that much but may be able to cover some crucial needs.
School will reopen next week, I have a few bills to pay at month end and I am palpitating.
When you are reading this, I am still trying to figure out how to survive at least until middle of January 2018, and it is not even 2018 yet!
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Asking for help is hard. It always seem like a taboo to ask for help, especially if you are an Entrepreneur. We taught ourselves to look tough on the outside, keep smiling even though deep down we are crumbling. We were afraid to be seen as hopeless. Good friends will ignore us and pretended they didn’t know about our predicament. It’s a painful and lonely feeling. I don’t cry in the open, but deep down I was hurting like hell.
Just a couple of weeks ago I met with an old friend that confessed to checking in into a psychiatric unit to seek help with her depression. Her husband’s business went down the hill since March this year, he was depressed and didn’t want to seek help even if he comes from a wealthy family. All of a sudden she has to fix the problem for him. She got caught off guard that she didn’t know where to start. Judging by her predicament, I don’t think she could stand in my shoes for more than a day. At least I know that her husband can still bite the bullet and be humble to seek his family’s help – IF he want to. But me?
I didn’t come from a rich family, nor do I inherited any money when I started my small business. I bootstrap all the way, but still, it is hardly enough to move ahead. Everything I earned goes back into the business and to family commitments.
And then (lesson well learnt!) a bad partnership came into the picture because I was too naïve and thought they are able to help us grow. The tragic part is that our partnership didn’t even make it to a one year term and I had to end it as we no longer aligned in our objectives and expectations.
This has affected the plans that I had for my 2 year old business and I am literally stuck. Not only that I am saddled in a partnership that I am trying to resolve (hopefully to resolve by Jan), my current reserve is drained too.
So how do I fix this pronto? How do I break this vicious cycle?
Wait, first thing first, how much do I need at least for now just to get by?
A lot of emotions come gushing in like a great tidal today.
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2017 has been a year of terror for me, so deep that it left a memorable scar in my memory. I have been too busy firefighting, settling debts and just trying to keep my head above water in 2017 that I sigh with relief that this vicious year is coming to an end soon. 2018 may seem to be just another year to some, but to me, symbolically it gives me new hope.
I need to press the restart button. I need to recreate life again. This small business is the only rice bowl I have and I am determined to make it work.
Therefore I am putting myself on the line, trying to find out if seeking help via Steemit platform is possible and see it for myself if it really works.
I have no idea how much can I gather from this platform as this is my first (and hopefully my last!) attempt and I am afraid to put any number (trying to be realistic at the same time) at the same time, so I leave it to the Steemians generosity and hopefully there will be kind hearted people out there reading this post.
One thing for sure, we will all have our ups and downs in life. And we will certainly need people to help us out in times of need. Nobody can tell exactly when trouble is coming. And to help others doesn’t really need a reason to do so. We help because we want to. Today is my day, who knows tomorrow is yours.
The only thing I can promise you if this ever happen to you is these (if you are on Steemit platform too):
If I hardly have anything for myself, I will Upvote & leave comment on your post so at least you can get some Steem $ there;
If I have a lot of Steem dollars to spare and able to donate more, I will transfer some Steem $ to you.
If you want to drop me a kind note, you are welcome too!
Whatever action you take will definitely bring me hope and make a difference. The purpose of life is not just to be happy but to be useful, honorable and compassionate. No one has ever become poor just by giving.
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I promise to update the outcome of this posting and in the meantime, will leave everything in God’s good hands.
So who is Angiechin28?
Angie is a Mom with a mission (with a 10 year old daughter, 6 overweight cats and an overgrown baby man, ie: Hubs) is the Founder of HerPortal.co, the first online platform in Malaysia that connects & empower Women & Moms to affordable online learning (coming soon!), shareable contents, job opportunities, resources and go-to market opportunities to earn side income/sustain via tried & tested channels.
She discovered Steemit by accident after reading a friend’s posting on Facebook and decided to check it out because she’s too curious (not kaypoh ahhhh..) to find out exactly how it works. Since then, she never looks back.
Since she loves to post up her ramblings and contents (current fave is Facebook & Instagram), she might as well earn by doing so by posting up on Steemit’s platform and best of all, it’s the only online platform that she knows allows ANYONE to earn cryptocurrency by creating and posting up contents, by voting or commenting other people’s contents and so much more!
Bottom line, whatever you do on the platform, you will earn. How cool is that?
So, what are you waiting for? Sign up for Steemit already, it is FREE and you’ve got nothing to lose but an awesome opportunity.
Current tagline: You live only once, take the leap and discover where it brings you!
She is reachable at [email protected].
I feel you! hug and pat pat on the shoulder, you have done well to walk thus far. Believe in the all mighty, he has the best arrangement for you, no matter how worse the current situation is, you just have to believe, we might not get the answer right now, but it will be revealed one fine day, and you will understand why all this happen. Someone has ever tell me this, we should feel blessed that we have the courage, the opportunity, the experience in doing startup, not everyone have the privilege, have the choice. I understand that women, we are bunch of emotional gang, but after we rant, we should look out to find the way, keep moving is the key. This is what always motivate me, hope it help you too -- Winners never quit and quitters never win!
Thank you @ahtnamas! Your feedback fuels me up. I agree with you, sometimes life set backs just baffle us. We get upset with the big man up there because we dont understand why he chose us to go through it, but I guess he has better plans for me. To be honest, I am glad that the partnership didn't last or else I will never be able to see what's on their sleeves. I am moving on for sure, slowly but surely. I am wounded but not dead yet :-)
Angie I feel you. I too have had to bootstrap my way these last 6 years. Did my best to not cave in n go back to full time employment in the early years. I have been in your shoes many times. Good times are coming I truly believe it. We don’t know each other well but I am here for you. Things are already looking up from what I read above.
@kristaldiva am glad we crossed path :-) Keep it up on Steemit dear. You are doing good! I am happy to learn most that attended HER Conference recently has signed up into Steemit and earning slowly.
Hi @angiechin28 ...I can relate to what you are going through. If you read some of my previous posts I wrote a little bit about my struggles (health, my hubby's business failed, having to move to KL, most of all trying to stay afloat financially). It's very very tough. I cashed out some of my SBD a couple of days ago to pay for my medical bill...and that's the last $ we have till early next month. Hang on there and don't feel bad about reaching out for help. I know how it feels. I am donating a little SBD your way...it's not much but I am trying to pay it forward. Take care :)
@coloringiship will check out your story dear! I am grateful for your generosity. I have never ask in the open this way, so I hope it will also inspire others to not be afraid and face their fear. Thank you again <3
Ah...it is okay to ask help. Who knows one day we ourselves also need help from people. Who are we to judge? Actually I am also like you in many ways. Well, God creates human for a reason, to be together and help and love each other. i dont have much so i upvote you and comment. Hope you can gather enough from this platform. Hugs
Thanks so much @iamjadeline :-)
Sorry to hear about your troubles ... We all go thru these bad patches . It's how we pickup and move forward as life goes on . Here is a bit of news .... Did u know that you have close to RM6xx already sitting down in your steemit wallet uncollected which you can cash out ?
@bitrocker2020 I didn't know that! Ohmy! What a blessing bro!!
Kan ... Tdk mau duduk dengar saya punya kelas. Mari tmrw Kita minum kopi I help u get it withdrawn to Ur bank acct
Lols! Sibuk bah, you see me running around kan. Lols! Besok am going to Midvalley for appointment, wanna meet up sana? :) Sia beli ko kopi!
Silakak .. kmu tau sya tdk suka mv . Msg u bisuk la
Ok boss...Lols!
@angiechin28 I've been in your shoes and I understand what you are going through. Sometimes as we go through the peaks and valleys of entrepreneurship, we can't see what lies ahead and that's when we need to reach out for help. I applaud your courage to speak out and ask for help instead of trying to figure things out on your own. There is absolutely no shame in doing so and even the most brilliant of all minds, need someone or somebody to lean on. As part of the #steemit and #teammalaysia community, here's wishing you a great and exciting year of 2018. Upvoted and resteem!
Thank you @karinzdailygrind! <3
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STOPI can relate to your situation as well, asking help does need a lot of courage, I'm glad you found yours. I hope by being here you can relieve some of your stress and see the light, find your own path. I transfer a bit of SBD, just to show my support on your journey. Blessing to you.
Thanks so much @roselifecoach! It's not easy to share when you hit rock bottom. I hope the post inspires others too.
I agree, the feeling of shame and fear that's pulled us to the bottom, once we get passed that and asked for help, we can see hope and feel relieved plus knowing actually there are people that really care for us. I know this post will definitely inspires others. Keep posting ya.
Will do @roselifecoach :-)
Hugs and Love! 💕💖 💓 💗 ♨️
Steemit is a wonderful platform for everyone. It really helps financially, spiritually, emotionally, intellectually...
@elizacheng indeed! I am loving the platform as I learn about its potential everyday.
Appreciate your upvote for my comment! Thanks! FYI, you will need to power up to at least 60SP to have your vote worth a cent. And make sure you check your voting power at https://steemnow.com/@angiechin28 and maintain it above 80% (or at least 70%). And quickly meet up with @bitrocker2020 for the withdrawal tutorial!
Am planning on our Team Malaysia Junior for our little ones. I have started an account for my girls. Maybe your girl can make friends with mine. Mine are 8, 6 and 3 this year. :D
Good idea @elizacheng! Perhaps we can start off with our kids!! Yeah @bitrocker2020 taught me yesterday briefly. But later I have to kacau him again.
Are you in the discord group? If you can't get to him, there's many more "sifu" in the group who would help... :D
What's a discord group? Lols. I love it this group is ALIVEEEE! :D
Here's the invitation link. https://discord.gg/d8RWbRq
It's a chat group.
And yes, we can start the first Team Malaysia Junior session with my 3 girls, your girl and @bitrocker2020's son (if I remember correctly)... yay! Really need to get in touch with @bitrocker2020 to get this plan kickstarted...
Yes, his son Nick :-) . Yasssss...let's start em young! By then those 5 kids are more advanced than us @elizacheng
My girls will post in their steemit account, on and off... I help them to post to be exact...
Hugs Angie. I can relate to this. Most of the time outsiders will never know or understand. Better days will come.
Agreed @ladylei, what most people see is our smile but deep inside its the opposite. The experience opened my eyes too.
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Hey @angiechin28. Can’t believe you didn’t appear on my feed ... but i upvoted you and I hope you’re doing better now. Pls know that the community is always here to help each other! (Virtual) Hugs ...
Hugss...U will never be alone.