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As a child, you started imagining the things that you want to do or you want to happen to your life. Here comes your JS Prom, where your Mom will tell you, ”You’re so beautiful young lady” and your Dad will tell you, ”Don’t dance with someone who’s not good looking like me”. You also imagine the graduation day, where you want your parents to be with you while marching towards the stage and clapping their hands when you will be awarded of your accomplishments and be proud of you. You also want to your debut to be special, a candle to be lighten by your mother with an inspirational message as one of your 18 candles and the very special dance with your dad as one of your 18 roses. Here comes the I GOT A JOB DAY, where you see your mom and dad eyes that they are so happy that after the hard work in school, you’ve got a job. The first love and the first heart break, where you have their shoulders to cry on. You have your mom advise and your dad who’s to the rescue in beating up the guy who broke your heart, but he will not actually do. There’s a lot more of imagination as a child but you want it to become reality, but in my side "it was an imagination that never happen".
I didn’t experience my JS Prom, my graduation day, my debut, my I got a Job day and my first love and first heart as I want it to be. The reason why behind it is, someone missed the 16 years of my life and that is my DAD.
My father passed away when I was 6 years old, he was shot and killed.
It was the worst day of my life, I lost not just a father but best friend and my first love. I’m still young before and I don’t still understand what’s happening around me. Yes, I’m already six but I don’t know what death really means. They were just telling me that he is sleeping, that he will wake up and play with me again. My family are crying and me just playing around. Then my mom talked to me, she told me that my dad will never comeback because someone killed my father. After then, I my heart was grieving. He is the first man who was there to catch me when I started to fall. The first man to wipe my tears away when I was afraid or hurt. The first man to tell me how beautiful and special I am. A lot of questions were running on my mind. WHY HIM???? Why did they have to kill HIM??!! All of that questions are still running on my mind and trying to find the answer.
I tried not to speak about his death nor to think about it because it makes me miss him more and more. It’s hard to live without a father, there are days where I need someone to save me and rescue me. Someone who will fight for me and who will always be on my side. Some days are harder than others, most of the hard days involve me thinking about what he have missed out on from the past 16 years. Nobody can understand the broken heart that comes from a little girl losing her father. Words can't describe how much I miss my father. You'll always be in my heart.
I love you and I miss you DAD
I have an angel in heaven watching me and I call him DAD
I am still thankful that my mom was strong and she was able to manage to be our mom and our father. She constantly showed me to find the good in life, even when it was even hard to find yourself. I know being a single mom was difficult. You made it look easy to balance everything, even when I knew it wasn’t. Your selfless manner is one of the many reasons I will always look up to you. The unconditional love has made me understand what love truly is. You gave us double love that I ever needed and deserved. It was more than making me feel loved; it was teaching me that even through the difficult situations, I am loved.
Thank you ❤ JESSA
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Awww Jessa :( this really touched my heart and I know the pain of losing a dad.
How there is a void that is hard to fill.
Thank you kuya!
Yeah, its really hard most specially when you need a care that only dad can give.
What a beautiful and poignant piece of writing and I am so sorry for your loss.
Your Dad obviously set you on the right path to grow up into an amazing young lady.
My most sincere best wishes to you and your family, may you enjoy the rest of your life in peace and happiness.
Thank you so much for this inspirational comment of you. I really do appreciate it!!
Our loved ones won't be physically present as always but their love, guidance will always linger in our hearts.
I agree with you.
:(
:) I'm strong!
That's good. :)
I wish I could write like you.
Another write up I will never believe. Everyone can write, it is just about finding the way you write best. I just found a way to combine letters and words to make it sound like I know what I am talking about. Trust me, it is something everyone can do if you put a little thought into it..... Its sadden d heart to loss someone
Maybe the reason why my writing is good it is because it came from the heart and full of emotions. By the way, thank you for passing by! and Thank you!
How sad life really is. There you are,missing your dad while someone elsewhere is wishing he/she never had one.
I wish you all the best in life,and if there is something you can do for him, it is to live your life to the full. You couldn't have prevented his death, but you can make it worthwhile. Be strong @itsjessamae ,your dad is watching.
I agree. Everytime I see post that they wish they never had a dad is making me angry. I want to tell them how sad living without a dad.
Thank you so much for the message, and yess don't worry I will live my life to the fullest.
Thank you!
hmmm, this is really touching, I have been going through all your posts they are awesome!
Thank you so much for passing by my account. I appreciate it!!
you are welcome you can follow me to get updates on my side too.
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I too am thankful that my mom raised us well by herself.
Yes!!!! I agree
Aww, reading this made me cry. Hold on Jessa, your dad is watching you from above!
aww. yes, I have an angel watching me :)
just be strong @itsjessamae
yes, I will. Thank you!
@itsjessamae I feel you. I know how hard when someone dear to us left for good. But we should still be glad for they are finally home with God above and that they feel pain no more in heaven.
Keep your life alive and colorful because that what makes your loved one smilin' . Keep on steeming, we have good people to support us here like @surpassinggoggle who is very kind and generous
yes he's in good hands now.
Thank you so much for the inspirational message. I agree with you a lot of people will support us :)
Got goosebumps while reading this. This post just made me realize how lucky I am to have a father who is still around and supports me every time. Thank you so much @itsjessamae for this post <3 Lots of Love. I truly salute you and your mother. Laban lang!
Yeah you're very lucky, so make sure to be a good a daughter, tell them you love them everyday :)
Laban!! :)
This is so sad @itsjessamae. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to grow up without a father but I know your mom raised you well and give her best to provide the life you have right now.
It's hard but I have my mom. :)
Thank you for passing by!
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agpasangit ka kunam.
yow. apay? hahaha
Ket I am daddy's girl!
Yes! Your prayer is enough. :) Thank you!!