I read the entire post and comments. I like that you have found a home within your skin again. It gets bad when we allow the world to enter and some nasties join the rush to tweak our senses with misery, but, as now, after it all, you find yourself more fragile maybe, as you know what life can be like, but also, at the same time, stronger than before, for you have faced the darkness and tottered at the lip of the threatening waters of hell and you have fought your way back to being yourself again.
I am certain that having your son with was a great comfort and a strength for you - he sounds like a really nice person.
Thank you for that awesome response @arthur.grafo! My son truly has been a blessing throughout this entire experience. I feel guilty sometimes knowing he's uprooted everything to join me on this adventure, but he seems to be happy with his decision, I mean how many times does a young adult get the opportunity to travel the countryside looking for a place to start over? I think he realizes that. It's been a crazy ride getting back to being myself and also discovering a lot about myself that I didn't know. Thanks for stopping by Arthur!... I appreciate your time and your kind, thoughtful words so much!