First of all I send you a bigggg !HUG
You are not alone, reach out if you need to my friend.So sorry to hear about your struggles dear @patsitivity and about your friend.
As you write you had medical help before, maybe this is the time to reach out again. There is help.
Try to do exactly that for now; one day at a time… you are worth living.
Find things to do… writing this already helps and I know it takes a lot of courage. Maybe write a bit more, set yourself some tasks.
Even when your thoughts are occupying your mind and saying things, hold on to happy memories. Your travels, joys in your life.
We all feel like this sometimes, believe me. You are not alone.
Stay strong my friend.
@littlebee4, sorry!
You are out of hugs for today.
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