Reply to Guruvaj is sitting in a humanist lotus tree.
{And I am wondering if you already realized completely & directly that you are not your Self (mind) or if you have chosen to not realize that yet.}
Let me put it this way, for very few times in my waking time, when you felt or somehow seen a glimpse of a light, suddenly a conversation runs in my head, as if there are people having discourse, or just some voices telling me, explaining, or making me feel there is more to this life than my usual way of thinking.
These words are spontaneous, which it can be not from me, or just immense recall of all the teaching i put into my subconscious.
I just let it flow, listening, and if I have my chance i talk it out to somebody, like my wife or my collegues in school. But most of the time, just myself.
This "discourses" also urge me to write, but, numerous mundane obstacles are still in the way, I am not in a hurry, since I am still a Chela, on the path of learning.
Still some fears that are latent preventing me to really indulge the thing I still cant comprehend or just maybe, I am waiting for my new Master.
Whatever it is, it gives me more meaning and understanding, rather than be confuse, or distracted from concepts to concepts, a hope spring eternal, I lay my rest to the Masters.