In the past I already said that too much socializing can drain me. I do not need other people to be happy. I can be quite happy when I am walking the street just by myself or with Lota. Sun is shining? Great. I am happy about that. Birds singing? awesome. Someone is making a barbecue? I enjoy the smell. I see a beautiful lady, interesting shape of a cloud/ tree? all of that is good enough reson to smile and enjoy life. And even if I will not see anything interesting I will still think about my art, recent victory of my favorite basketball club, fascinating story I have read in the book... or I will just smile for no reason at all... possibilities to be happy are practically endless. As long as we do not look for excuses and reasons to be unhappy.
Sometimes I do not speak with my friends for a long time. afterwards we meet and I am happy about that. I enjoy their companionship. We have some fun. Then we once again go on our separate ways. And I do not have any urge to meet with them for quite a while.
That being said I felt a bit strange when I went to a night club during celebtation of new year. But I am not sure what was the reason for that feeling. It was my first time in a night club. I went alone. I did not drink at all. Any of those factors could be a decisive one. Or maybe it was a mixture of them all... Anyway I had a blast that night. Maybe not in a night club but later simply wandering around town at night.