What I'm looking for is actual excitement about going. Instead all I feel is tedium of all the details I have to work out to make it happen
I feel exactly the same. There are some really good deals around at the moment and I'd like to visit my Mum who lives in Malta. But the uncertainty of whether I'll actually be able to go later in the year, whether or not I'll have to self-quaratine on my return, all the imagined hassle at the airport, I find totally exhausting. It's not helped by the >30 degrees temperatures we've been experiencing. I'm hoping I'll feel more motivated once it cools down and I can get a decent night's sleep.
That's one thing about Europe, not enough air conditioning! It's hot here too, but a/c makes it tolerable. Just indoors bound all day gets real old.
Yeah, I'm still looking for inspiration, so that it isn't just ego-driven labor to do something that's supposed to be fun, but won't actually be. It may be that there is some unknown that needs to be made clear first, and I'm waiting on that, not even knowing the question yet.