Why wish all those things in the last paragaph when that is not how it is? Why not fully embrace what has chosen you. Settling down is not about being in one place. Can you settle down within yourself?
Life is unexpected and uncertain. It's just that must of us pretend it isn't. Because that makes us feel better - like we have more control than we actually do. I celebrate your love of it!
It's noone's wish to see their mother cry at the airport I guess. I have embraced myself but that doesn't mean it comes without sacrifice and a downside. Thanks :)