I found SteemFest a bit overwhelming as I don't do well with big crowds. At times I felt like withdrawing to a corner as I had nothing to say, whilst at other times, if I came across people whom I got on really well with, I would be so wrapped up in conversation with them and totally ignore other people around me without intending to. I'm not sure if this is what happen to some of the other people you met, but I am not here to defend them as I wasn't around.
Life is never fair, some spend hours crafting a post and only end up with a few $ payout and others could get $20/$30+ with just a photo. The same goes for relationship, we gain some and lose some. I'd like to think we have all gained more than lost during SF4.
Now that you've started a new life so to speak, it will be what you make of it and who you want to be. Whatever personal issues you had doesn't need to follow you around as no one know who you were from back home. Carrying baggage around can be very hard work and you don't want that when you're travelling. Keep in touch!
Thanks a lot for sharing your perspective. SteemFest was also overwhelming for me and I heard the same from others. I have accepted that it is not fair here and life is like that.
If there's a take away for me here is that it made me aware of some personal issues and baggage that I carry, that needs to be dealt with. That's why I took this big journey. Will keep in touch :)