well written article sir, informative and personal. I very much feel your pain on accepting money I however see a balanced exchange between consenting adults as a fundamental right, and this platform is the perfect vehicle for that. So please try and be easier on yourself, when you inspire others through your soul filled work it is the natural cosmic order to give love in return. I think you might enjoy the work of Walter Russell who is an illuminate by any standard I can judge his actions by.
Please take a look at what I have to offer, if it speaks to you share it here.
In Love/light,
Cosmic Man