I really really struggle with trust, or at least I Useda-did. But whatever is our greatest struggle, challenge, aversion is usually also our salvation when we surrender the resistance. So Trust is what has saved me and I learned this via trusting Sean. He is incredibly worthy of trust, and through practicing trust in Him I have learned to trust myself and, ultimately, the flow of the universe. That sounds kinda deep and cheesy, but it's absolutely truth.
I totally get it. John was the first guy I was ever with that I feel is a reliable person