Hi @awakentolife
Finally, I can rest for the week and welcome a long holiday where I can start catching up with all the overdue to be looked upon posts! haha.
You are right in many ways when you express that you literally absorb other people's emotions, that is because, as what you have discovered, as we grow older we tend to be more understanding and compassionate about the people around us, and to appreciate what we get to see and experience through life.
In short, we learn to number our days
I don't blame you for feeling the negative energy lately especially after the horrifying experience so closed with the flames that engulfed almost 60% of your hill (looking at the photo and comparing). Going through that and walked out alive to tell the tale and to see the devastated people around you. I can only imagine all the emotions that goes through your eyes and ears (your gates) that effects your heart.
I am not here to argue with you, my dearest friend. But I do want to encourage you, have that quiet time of yours, seek deep.
There could be something void inside that maybe the post traumatic stress (usually after a horrified experience) have taken away. I know how that feels. That certain part inside you that you cannot generate that light within you.
As you remembered you have read my Selah post previously and you know how I reconnect by knowing who I truly am, and work from there; so I too right now, encourage you to do the same.
You are, by far, in steemit, the most compassionate and kind person I have ever met and you will always do whatever it takes to cheer someone on. That is the gift that God (my big man upstairs as I often like to refer lol) has given you. That is actually in each and every one of us but often times, things in life will either dim it or even destroy it.
so I truly want to, cheer you back, and have that deep breath moment, and know that you are a very valuable person from inside, and from there, let that realisation push those negative out of your system.
When light is strong, no shadow can exist
I pray that your light within you will flow out like living waters soon and have that happy smile again.
Cheers! Take care!
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I am glad you found time to comment on my post. Your comments are literally posts and I love to read them. As much as I pour my thoughts into my posts so do you in your comments. I truly appreciate it. :)
The fire did not so much get into a negative thinking as much as it disappointed me because it seems all the fires were planted. I can't understand people doing these things. RIght now I have learned how to snap myself out quickly from negative thinking but simply turning it into something positive. I did not sit on my butt, and I went out there and helped in any way I can. It is the how united people were in the face of danger which inspired and motivated me.
Thank you so much for all your kind and thoughtful words, I truly appreciate all your heartwarming and supporting words. You have made my experience on Steemit already worth it. Even though I am one month here only. Your comment has already brought a happy smile on my face. :)
Your amazing and I wish you even more amazing day. Much love. XOXO :)