I was in a situation before where I have begged for someone to love me back, to reciprocate the kind of love that I was giving, to return all the efforts that were done and are still continuously doing, not to the extent that it will be fully returned, but at least it will make me feel the same way even just for a little while. But I have endured it. I let it pass. I just thought that everything will change in time, and in time, all will be better. Unfortunately, everything goes down south. If before I was begging for love, later on I was begging for him to stay. I was desperate. I told him that he can just ignore me and my feelings, that it’s not necessary that he will reciprocate everything, for as long as he will stay, I will be so happy with just that. As long as he stays, I will be glad. As long as he stays, I won’t ever complain.
But he didn’t. She left without even saying goodbye. She left without even really telling me why. I was devastated. My world, in shambles. My worth, I began to question it. My life, I somehow hate it.
It was depressing. I felt that I was reduced to the lowest form of human. It was the highest form of stupidity no matter what the result was. My means of being happy was being unfair to myself. It’s terrible -- I was terrible to ‘me’.
But I’ve learned a very crucial lesson, a very painful one in that regard. No one is worthy to be begged for, because begging isn’t actually necessary if they want you or need you in the first place. But they didn’t, so obviously they aren’t worthy for you.
And now I still beg, I plead that I’ll find myself again, the old me before you came. And so I beg ---- I beg you, goodbye.
-from the woman who’s now begging to redeem herself.
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I thank mam @beanz for being too supportive to each of us in our journey. I am very grateful for all the things that you do
For the great guy who created the tag #ULOG , #ULOGS forming part of the #ULOGGER community. Thank you for giving us the chance to be a celebrity even if we are not
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